Glad finally i have chance to be in jakarta again, even just for few days. Weird.. this time, I don't feel really excited being in jakarta. Not that Balikpapan now becomes sort of 2nd home, or jakarta is 1st home, i don't know. The truth is suck having my stuff scattered in so many places. After 1 year back and forth to balikpapan, i start to confuse finding that I dont fit no where.
I have new friends but I feel like I also lost some of my old friends. I know, I can't be in two different places and catching up with everyone at the same time. But they used to be around a lot, and i kinda miss it...and now it seems that everybody busy catching up with lot of thing (yea..i know, i've been going for too long).
The good thing, some of my friends are still there. At least, some of them. They don't really treat me as a stranger like many others did. It makes me feel a bit fit here.
Mungkin karena hobi kita masih nyambung; makan-nongkrong-dan mengumpat-ngumpat soal kerjaan. Ya..ya ..ya..ujung2nya emang ngumpat2 soal kerjaan .. how sucks and unfair life is. which i believe many people do have this kind of thing anyway. Please don't think we do not grateful for whatever we have right now, we just like to talk about those shitty part of our day, just talk..nothin more than that..
At the end of the day, cheese cake with coffee or chocolate in rainy afternoon was a perfect combination.
Maybe this is just a way of life should be. People come and go writing each other story. I just don't ready yet to be part of their history, but now I need to get used to it. Catching up with friends. Before those friends turn to be a total stranger..or I become a total stranger for them..whichever?! don't like that.
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